Feels like killing myself.

I don't want anybody causing that person to be sad again.. but today, I am the one who made that person sad.

Hate myself.

2 days ago,

I received news my brother is sick, I myself is still in shock, trauma, fear, lost of my spirit from what had happened that day.

Yesterday,

My friend told me the most unreasonable reason why he ditch me, his best friend.

My friend wanted me to give commitment when he actually knows what i've been through now.

Today,

Frustrated with no improvement at all in results. Feel stupid shit.

Made someone sad, which is the thing I don't want to do the most. Miserable.

Yeah I am miserable.

Sorry if my existence causing trouble to any of you.

Bye.