Cutiii

Salam.

Nama je cuti. tapi somehow, I think I am better alone.

OSCE

Oh finally, its done.

The worst OSCE, I've faced ever!

I don't know what happen to me, but at the last station, I didn't alter my way of clerking, be rigid to what 'the psychiatric rules are'.

Nice Siti. Nice.

I don't know what's gonna happen to me.

Seriously, I am definitely exhausted. Tortured mentally and physically today.

The OSCE session for each person is about 2 hrs, do within 2 hours we had been into 16 different rooms, each with their own questions/problems/patients.

Initially, I have not feel anything, and after the session ended, haa then I've started to feel very exhausted. My mind seem floating away with frustration. My body was getting heavier in each steps that I took.

Huu.

Friends, please pray for me yea?

Really I need the dua's :)

Love you!

Exam dan Durian

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Exam:

Oh saya ada exam. Tadi, esok dan lusa. 

Tadi:

Bolehla. tapi hopefully lepas lah 50% marks. Soalan psikiatri sangat mencabar. Oh ye, ada soalan pathophysiology of coma juga. (Tengok balik frontpage, psychiatry kan? x silap x silap)

Huu, terkejut jugak. dan banyak pula soalan KBKK. (Kemahiran berfikir secara kritis dan kreatif)

Mungkin sebab kami makin meningkat dewasa, jadi in order untuk jadi doktor yang bagus, berkaliber mestilah mampu jawab soalan-soalan seperti ituh. huargh. Semoga Allah bantu. Amiin.

Esok:

Esok saya ada OSCE. 

Ada 20 station, dan setiap satu station tu sama ada kite akan jumpa pesakit, jumpa video, jumpa spesimen, jumpa Beto  video. So kite x tahu, tp yg pasti ada masa 5 minit je utk selesaikan sume. 

Basically tadi dh revise 80%, tapi rasanya kena practise depan cermin lagi. TT_TT rasa mcm awful. sebab perut pun penuh dgn gas hasil drpd makan durian yang sangat banyak dan sedap! << cerita kt bawah.

Ya Allah bantulah hambaMu ini.

Lusa:

Ada Specialty. 4 sub-specialty: mata, telinga tekak dan hidong, bius, dan sinar x-ray.

Ya Allah bantulah hambaMu ini.

http://medic-herbal.blogspot.com/2012/03/benefits-of-durian-fruit.html

Duriaannn:

Tadi bestie bg durian, ada 4 biji. wah besar2 dan overall sedap. Thx bestie.

So due to that, semua org makan smpai kekembungan, revise sambil golek-golek sampai terpejam-pejam, tertido-tido. huuu.

Sebab tulah dah rasa senak, dok bersandar je kat kerusi dkt dgn meja study. TT_TT

Semoga Allah bantu kami semua Amiin.

Terima kasih Allah atas segala nikmat. Selalu manusia, lupa akan nikmatNya. Bila dah hilang baru rasa rindu. Ya Allah, peliharalah kami. Semoga kami jadi doktor yang bukan sahaja mampu mengubat fizikal manusia, malah mampu mengubat hati-hati manusia dan membawa mereka kembali pada jalanMu. Amiin.

Semoga esok dipermudahkan Allah. Amiin. 

Patutnya tengah belajar sekarang

As the matter above, I should be studying right now.

Urgh, Im not the type of person who can revise alone. need a discussion group. TT_TT

baru perasan my coping stress skills adalah mengada2 + masak2

huaaa kiranya kalau time stress boleh jd isteri mithali lah. hahaha.

random betul.

kepala serabut dgn exam.

Hadoi.

N sy telah frust dgn beto! (bukan sbb dia sudah berkahwin atau apa ye)

tp sbb lain.

p/s: no hints. :P

Exam dan filem

Oho, apa kena mengena exam dengan filem kan kan.

Saya ada exam yang bakal datang dan hadir dlm hidup saya next week.
FINAL EXAM okeh.

Psychiatry & Specialty posting. Urrgh.. Baru baca pasal drugs. Oh cik siti ni mmg terkenal study last minute.

Kalau x ada perubahan mcm mana nk score kan? (Ketuk kepala sendiri)

So basically semalam tak ada MOOD LANGSUNG. nak study. Diulang. tak ada mood LANGSUNG.

So, dgn pergi kelasnya, then lepak2, pastu pergi kelas tafsir. hm..

N malam buat kerja gile.

Stay up bkn sbb nk study, tp tgk Beto Kushairy~ (mcm pantun plak)
I don't know what so unique about him, tp suka gila tgk cara dia berlakon. Mcm he's character mmg cmtu. really like him though. :)

Since Istanbul aku datang  i think he is a unique actor, with his own style. serius2 gitu. wahaha.

And malam tadi tengok cerita AKU DIA DAN TONG SAMPAH.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igB31LUUAV4

Best gileeee. siti saleha pun nampak natural. beto apatah lagi.
comella diorg. :)

Maybe saya suka cerita yg hero dia x perlu nampak perfect. mcm ada kelemahan jgk. bukan mcm dlm novel, hensem, kaya, anak tan sri or kerabat, sopan, n gentleman habis.

Okey jom study diabetic neuropathy.

Hidup

http://carithers.files.wordpress.com/2010/09/heling-hands.jpg

Hari-hari kena menulis. haaa. semalam x menulis sebab penat sangat. (dah langgar kontrak sendiri ni, adei)

Hari ni, entahla.. sebab belajar drpd tindakan org lain, I dun want to be a person yang buat benda yg sama pd org lain.
Saya harap sgt, saya akan suka menolong orang tanpa pertikaikan apa-apa.

:)


Orang lain tu biar jelah. Yang penting kita jangan ikut contoh yang tak baik, tp jadi contoh yg baik. :D

Sebenarnya saya stranded kat kolej, sebab kilat yg sangat teruk di luar tu. TT_TT
Takut nak drive. huhuhu.

Lama sangat x tulis puisi.. lama sgt x menulis (x dela lama sgt)

Ada 3 projek skarang ni. 2 long story, 1 compilations.

Agak-agak ada publisher yang berminat tak?

(takpe-takpe, fikir positif, siapkan karya, then boleh hantar) :D

Action plan x siap lg, timeline pun sama. seminggu lebih lagi exam psychiatry dgn specialty posting.

Doakan ye.

p/s: saya syg semua org yg baca blog saya ni. yeay! thx for the doa semua orang.
(i lost my pace, so akhir2 ni sabar jelah dgn post2 merapu pffft).

Sometimes

Sometimes I didn't know whether my choice is the right choice.

May Allah guide me.

Sometimes we have conflict in ourselves.

At one point we'll ask,

Is this what we wanted in our lives?

Is it?

And we didn't realised, that time, the conflict in ourselves already begun.

We tend to argue within ourselves.. is this the right thing to do, or is this what we want?

Who knows the answers? Me? No.

Him.

Solution: Pray, and ask His guidance. He knows the best. Definitely.

9 bulan

Salam :D

Ehehe, apa yg 9 bulan? mengandung ke? taklah. 9 bulan dah tinggalkan blog ni.

I decided to start writing again! yeaah. sebab ada personal project yang perlu disiapkan tahun depan. Apa kena mengena? we'll see. :)

Hidup sekarang ni, tidak seperti biasanya. Makin besar, makin banyak masalah. konflik jiwa, manusia, semuanya ada. what we could do.. huhu. nothingggg...

Redha terhadap apa yg berlaku.. makin lama cabaran makin besar. hm, rasa marah, menyampah semua ada, bagaikan diri sendiri ni sempurna tak ada salah, then nk menyampah kt orang.

To forgive pun skarang dh ambil masa.. tapi saya tahu selagi hati ini tak tenang, selagi tu rasa fikiran serabut.

Pleaselah, diri ni, jangan laaaa fikirkan orang yang menyampah kat awak tu. baik awk fikir pasal orang2 yang sayang kat awak.

Siapa?

U hv ur parents, ur bestfriends, n paling penting adalah Allah.

Study lagi bagus. :)

Oh kepada pembaca blog, tolongla doakan saya supaya tabah, dan tenang fikiran dan hati. Love u guys!